Deep Coffee

choice or reactivity
coffee – addiction or addition

Sense or Think

My current perspective sees people as a collection of human cells, bacteria and fungi that form the walking “*meat puppets” from which our attention emerges.

In any moment, we can either place the emergent property of our attention into thought or into our senses. Meat puppets, like plants and fungi are a community of cells cooperating to increase complex relationship through specialization. Whoa there camel! – that’s a big concept worthy of several books ‌. Lets ‌ assume we are still on the same page and keep moving though.

Change for a time

I wanted to be “just friends” with coffee without the addiction. So I eventually managed to stop drinking it for about 9 days, which killed my energy delivery. I had not realized how much caffeine amplified ketones.
I am mostly ketogenic(1), but that is only partially relevant to this post.
I tap into a lot of highly creative ideas but action very few. Caffeine seems to ramp up my strategic thinking when what I really want to pay more attention to the world around me(2). Blabber-mouthing with out paying attention to others was not being helped by caffeine either.
Now that I see this clearly, the motivation to quit daily use of coffee arose naturally, requiring little discipline. After quitting the habit of using coffee to kick-start my energy delivery, ‌I thought about just drinking coffee on Sundays.
The trouble with creating treats in a future date is that this affirms psychological time. Another “big concept”, but lets keep moving with it. Creating futures that are better or worse than the present, does not help me to experience and appreciate the perfection of the moment and can keep me lost in imaginings and concerns.

Divide and be Conquered

Most serious healers and teachers, come to understand that most social and a fair bit of biological pathology arises from feelings of separation, loneliness, unworthiness or inadequacy. From the loss of sensitivity to innate connection.
Wasting my attention on over thinking, makes me more insensitive the situations around me. Lowering the quality of my interactions which feeds back into my insecurity, making me think more.
I think in words, symbols for “things”, for divisible units of reality that I can now compare and assign values to. Words while extremely useful for communication and cooperation, paint an inaccurate picture.
Thinking in words I see everything, including myself as separate and open to valuation and comparison. ‌When deeply in my senses, I do not experience the world as separate”things”. When not seeing everything through a filter of thoughts and assumptions, I see no boundaries to cause and effect only constant change.
I can see order and disorder, complexity and chaos. In my senses, my actions become more graceful because I am aware of the movement around me. I understand what is happening so do not need to check in with memories and opinions, so I can stay present and attentive.

What has this got to do with Coffee?

Yesterday, I had a strong craving for coffee, which signals either chemical addiction or discontent aka, non acceptance of events. After an argument with my wife my vitality crashed and I felt a strong desire to kick start my energy. Not a good time to re-enforce a negative feedback loop, better to do some repairs around the house and accept my feelings instead of trying to change them.
I got a lot done yesterday so today is a good day for writing and drawing. Checking in with my biology, no cravings or discontent present, so I visit a nice coffee house. Its raining and there’s nobody else here. Perfect time to use the drug, caffeine and put it to work deliberately and with focus.
I hope this story is a useful metaphor about giving priority to sensation in biology rather than mental programming, (memory). Operating from the senses affirms connection, whereas operating from thoughts can affirm fragmentation and separation. ‌
Self as separate gives rise to fear, and yet more “strategic” thinking, which pulls us further out of awareness of how interrelated everything and everyone are.
I have tried to address some difficult concepts using simple examples, I hope I have not wasted your time. Especially if you were looking for definitive opinion about wether to drink coffee or not. As you can see, why we do is more important than what we do. How we think, more important than the contents of our thoughts.

(1) Ketogenic – Nutritional Ketosis is a state of using either dietary or body fat for fuel, it can occur in the abssense of carbohydrates. The writer uses this as his predominant state due to anti-inflammatory and reduced oxidation benefits – read more

(2) Dr. Amen is most well know for using FMRI imaging to measure the effects of organic and synthetic compounds on patients brain activity.

4 – Assimilate – Information Biology


So the key take-away here is: All life is enabled by the transfer and utilization of energy. Contraction and defensiveness is supposed to be temporary, as it limits growth and creates stagnation, (higher entropy). Expnansion and receptiveness enable greater situational awareness, allowing for more effective use of energy. Beliefs that cause us to react in predictable ways often cause us to restrict the way that energy and information move through our bodies. We call this stress, it not only kills our cells, it keeps us acting out our learned fear management strategies. Freedom is about choice and it is not possible from a place of fear.

Measurement before management

In previous blogs I claimed that our base drive was to feel safe, and that we felt most alive only after this was achieved. To feel connected, we need to feel the way something other than self responds to us. We are the most receptive to sensation when we can relax. We relax to the degree that we felt safe and valuable within our “groups”. The way we learnt to transmit and read signals defines how we come to see ourselves in these groups. I endeavored to explain why, these signals, when triggered by stories, can influence our actions at the level of our instincts. In this post, I will look once again at the role of signals. There is a tendency to think of mind as seperate from body, as though we can use one to control the other. Far from being fragmented,  the way our biology interacts, expands outwards through ecologies and into economies.

Getting organized, cells before cell-phones

The basic roles of protection, accumulation, energy production, reproduction and organization all exist in single cell organisms. In multi-cellular organisms these functions can be delegated to specialized cells or groups of cells.  As the complexity of the organism increases, cells become tissues, and tissues become organs.

The more funky a creature gets,  the more advanced the intercellular communication that is required. Cells start to develop specifically to create, modify and transmit signals. The most advanced of these cells being the neurons that work in neural networks. Systems of neural networks become brains which work together with the endocrine system to send electrical and chemical, (such as hormones and neurotransmitters) communications throughout our bodies.

For all our complexity, we still need to push food, air and water, through the tubes and spaces of our bodies, we must still harvest and use energy effectively if we are to survive and reproduce. We must interact with each other and other species sustainably if we are to maintain an environment that continues to support complex life. Its still all about energy and accurate data transmissions, which I would like to take a closer look at in a latter post – “Swelling mistakes”

Mind Space


When the Noise becomes the Signal

To remain safe, effective and competitive a life form requires real time data from its surroundings. It must match its internal organization to the dangers and opportunities that are currently present. We know that organisms have the ability to learn from experience and, (to varying degrees) can imagine or forecast benefits of acting or investing energy in new ways.

The development of an advanced pre-frontal cortex allowed humans to form groups, assign specialized tasks and work together towards achieving common goals. More importantly, it enabled us to create stories that implied powerful concepts of advantage and fear. Those who behaved one way we’re sure to benefit and those who did not, well, they were in a different group anyway.

This ability to co-ordinate into large groups and delay instant gratification led us to create civilizations and develop technologies. We went from harvesting our food directly from nature, to trading it for goods and services with other humans.

Humans went from being organisms that required information about events in their environment (so that they could feed and breed), to organisms that needed to be able to influence the perception of others, while selecting which perceptions were safe to embody for themselves. To a large degree we left the realm of experiencing nature directly, to experiencing the reactions of other people and altering our actions to match.

Perception and Values

We learned to trade goods and services for energy, pleasure and survival. This new twist on the old reality shifted our survival focus. From the repeating patterns in nature, to the emerging themes in our cultures. Perception became nine-tenths of reality, because what was perceived by the group to be valuable, became valued. Increasing the perception of value, in some cases, became more profitable than increasing inherent value. To anchor these valuations at the level of the instinct, below the rational mind is to create a habitual market. As humans became the source of energy, new harvesting strategies were needed.

Freedom in Focus

I am guessing that most of you will of long ago realized that freedom is about choice, and that you can only choose that which you can see as a choice. Focus determines what we see, and what we hold in our “vision”.  There is competition, not just for our attention, but for our belief. Our belief’s guide our emotional responses, our internal signaling, our biology. Mind and body are inseparable, which is why focused movement is such a powerful tool for releasing non-useful stories. We will get to that oneday…

We can maintain our freedom to choose, to the degree that we can maintain our focus. Yet we find ourselves slipping off, into replaying past events or imagined futures, without choosing to. To understand freedom, or at least to save a great deal of energy, understanding the role of stories and of self valuation may be helpful.

Research notes

For an in depth look into how life’s quest for biological advantage drives the evolution of our cultures, I recommend reading chapter 2 of “Self comes to mind” by Professor Antonio Damasio. Without his 30+ years experience and wonderful insight, this concept would still be circling in my head looking for a way out. He has nailed it, magnificently.

Perhaps less obvious, though also helpful, was the explanation of military strategist John Boyd’s work on the OODA loop (Observe, Orient, Decide Act) by Brett and Kate McKay offering a western look into strategic processing, (an interesting counterpart to Sun Tzu’s Art of War and Moyomoto Musashi’s book of 5 rings). Without time bobbing around on my SUP, and helping others to “re-inhabit” their bodies more fully, on the water, this would be less clear.